Day 83 Saturday June 30

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and eggs

Lunch:
5 oz shrimp and some sauce
mixed nuts at friends house

Dinner:
15 oz salmon- not farm raised- really yummy

EXERCISE: WALK/SUN
WEIGHT: 280
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: Had bad headache in morning and during the day. Got some sun. Visited friends and had a nice time.

Day 82 Friday June 29

FOOD:

Breakfast:
omega 3 bacon and eggs

Lunch:
chicken wings (sweet sauce)

Dinner:
gyros and hot dog sans bun

EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 280
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: Feeling okay. Felt a little low a few days ago and realized I had skipped a day or two of vitamins. Vitamins for me including L-Dopa and 5-htp, which increase dopamine and serotonin in the brain. I should watch more closely to see how they affect me. I know that with the L-Dopa there could be some long term effects, but I'm not in it for the long term, just experimenting really. I should research to see if anyone else is using L-Dopa for ADD.

I've also been trying to get out in the sun once in a while for more vitamin D.

Day 81 Thursday June 28

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and omega 3 eggs

Lunch:
grassfed ground beef

Dinner: 3 pork chops

EXERCISE: walk 1 hour/ Bike 30 minutes (?)3 miles
WEIGHT: 280 (going down again)
BLOOD SUGAR: still out of test strips
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: In an okay mood. Getting some stuff done today. Think I finally settled the budget issue, so that makes me feel good. Also getting my work more organized.

Day 80 Wednesday June 27

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and eggs

Lunch:
1 lb grassfed ground beef

Dinner:
3 salmon fillets- from frozen, farm raised, spices

EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 283
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
In an okay mood. Frustrated with making a budget. Got a few things done, not too much.

Day 79 Tuesday June 26

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and eggs

Lunch: small ordinary steak

Dinner: grassfed ground beef- no more kechup or A-1!

EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 285
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: woke up early today. Felt fine, but at 5PM feel a little sleepy. No napping- will stay up until 10PM. Didn't get much done today- surfed the web a lot.

Day 78 Monday June 25

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and eggs

Lunch:
mcdonalds chicken strips-fried

Dinner:
2 pcs fried chicken
2 pcs fried fish

EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 284
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Well, it was a BBQ June 17th that started my slide. Or rather stall. A few items, a cupcake, potato salad, beans, etc. And since then fried foods on a few occasions. The pattern is clear. I need to get back to what I've been doing which was working.

Also, starting Monday I decided to get to bed at 10pm and wake up at 6am no matter what. I might stay up later, but I need to get up at the right time to set my clock. Get up and get out- and go for a walk, set myself to the sun.

I am ready to order a bunch of grassfed but I have to wait until I get paid Friday. I bought weight lifting stuff but now I need a new barbell.

In an okay mood I guess. Had one down episode a few days ago, but feeling fine. I read something about dopamine deficiency causing a lack of long term vs. short term planning. They said that people would also be affected by emotions in the short term. I've heard that said about ADD'rs, that they react strongly to upsets but bounce back. So they don't get in months of depression, but every little setback hits them hard for a while. I can identify with that. Something will happen and I get so down, and a day later I'm in my car driving and singing with the radio and feeling fine. The problem is lack of a long term focus. Focus to say "this is only temporary- focus on the long term goal".

Read some great stuff about BDNF being affected by high sugar high saturated fat diets, and that lack of BDNF causes brain problems AND metabolic syndrome problems. The link.

Day 77 Sunday June 24

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and eggs

Lunch:?

Dinner:?

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 285
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:

Day 76 Saturday June 23

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and eggs

Lunch: grassfed ground beef

Dinner: liver and onions
bbq beef sandwich sans bun
baked beans

EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 285
BLOOD SUGAR: out of strips
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Not too hung over at least. I also haven't been staying up until 4am all the time lately. It's more like 2am, which isn't bad. Also not super oversleeping. Try to get up and going and out in the morning more, get out in the sun also. I did a little sunning yesterday. I like it. Went to festival with friends.

Day 75 Friday June 22

FOOD:

Breakfast:
steak and eggs
some hash browns

Lunch:

Dinner:
line caught tuna in olive oil
salad w/ blue cheese dressing
1 cup potato salad

later:
peanuts
carrots
10 beers?

EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 286
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Got a few things done. Feeling decent. Walking sure is a mood booster.

Hung out with friends and then went to some local bars. One guy said to me "you sure look happy" jokingly. I guess I walked in with a pretty serious face. I try to smile more, but Guess when I drink I forget that. You know, I'm tempted to drink not so much because I enjoy it, but as a way to socialize more. When I think about quitting my chief worry is that I'll be even more unsociable. But like last night, I wan't socialable anyway. And when I drink I rely on that rather than trying to improve my social skills. I spend too much money, get hungover, drive when I shouldn't, and behave erraticly. There was a girl last night I should have talked to but didn't. I should quit drinking, and then try to go to all these places again and be more sociable. If you just mind your own business people end up talking to you anyway. At least I'd be something to put myself out there.

Again, weight loss has stalled. I'm not going to beat myself up or get too weight focused. In a way losing it slowly makes it more likely to stick, and I'm in the for the long haul. I do need to look at how my transgressions, like potatoes, sauces, breading and beer have hurt my progress.

Got some more weights from my friend. Still waiting for bench!

Day 74 Thursday June 21

FOOD:

Breakfast:
omega3 bacon and eggs.

Lunch:

Dinner:
4 pcs breaded fried chicken
6 bbq chicken wings

EXERCISE: walk 1 hr
WEIGHT: 285
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: I have this program on my palm called eatwatch. It allows you to enter your weight, and it smooths out the curves, and gives you a better picture of your weight, without getting tossed about buy momentary ups and downs. I've had a tiny slump lately, I'm sure as a result of the bbq this weekend. I had beans, potato salad, and a piece of cookie cake. It takes a few days to recover and get back into weight loss mode. It takes a few days after cheating for the dip to occur. I should run a ketostix soon as well.

Feeling okay. I was a little down lately, because my buddy, who's married, has better luck with meeting women than me. I shouldn't call it luck- it's the fact that I'm not even trying. I don't have the enthusiasm for some reason. I'm my own worst enemy. And now I'm worrying about the virtual assistant I hired- worried I'm getting ripped off, and embarassed that maybe its a stupid idea. I don't know, people with ADD are hiring ADD coaches for $100 an hour, I'm paying this girl $12 and she looks through my to do's and helps me prioritize. I thought it would help to have someone watching me. I made a budget so now I'm worried about money.

Overall I'm in a decent mood. I am also being more productive lately. I guess I need to focus on a few areas, like saving money, meeting girls, continuing fitness, etc.

Fitness wise- I want to start lifting again. I ordered a bench and squat rack. I should start bringing weights up from the car, and using the dumbells I have and doing some crunches every day. Maybe not every day- need time to recuperate, just like any other muscle I guess.

I should also start riding my bike as well.

Also, had a little bit of a sore stomach yesterday after the double cheeseburger and this morning. It came back a little this morning but got better when I walked. I wonder if drinking as much coffee as I do, with this hot weather, has something to do with it.

Day 73 Wednesday June 20

FOOD:

Breakfast:
omega3 bacon and eggs

Lunch: buffalo meat patty

Dinner: Popeyes chicken strips, bbq sauce, diet coke

double bacon cheeseburger- no bread (feeling hungry- seems like I ate more this night- was it the bbq sauce?)

lamb patty

EXERCISE: walk about an hour, walk more later in night
WEIGHT: 285
BLOOD SUGAR: running out of test strips
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: woke up super early today. Went to bed super early yesterday after eating rice. Hopefully I can get myself on a schedule of not staying up so late. I got up and walked this morning. I should get on a routine- get up, walk, eat, shower, chores, go out and do something fun, etc.

Day 72 Tuesday June 19

FOOD:

Lunch: Chicken kabob, rice, beef, sauce, onions
At least I didn't eat any pita!


EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 287
BLOOD SUGAR: 104 (still a little high)
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: slept late. Met a friend for lunch at a middle eastern place. That was nice. Then I went out in the sun for 20 minutes each side. Want to get some sun, but not overdo it. I've been reading about vitamin D and mental health, and how vitamin D prevents more cancer than it causes, as long as you don't burn. 20 minutes in the sun is equal to 200 glasses of milk and all the. Check out vitamindcouncil.com.

In an okay mood. I've been a little more productive lately, and I actually hired a virtual assistant to try to stay on track with things. We'll see how this goes.

HbA1c results are in!

So, the results are in, and my score is 5.7. In the last 70 days I think the only bread I've had was one mini cupcake. I ate a few cups of potato salad, had baked beans a few times, and ate chicken nuggets with breading a number of times. I've been walking once or twice a week, and drank a number of beers. So, altogether pretty good I think. I've eaten mostly meat, much of that grassfed, megadosed on omega3's and vitamins.  I ate blueberries, strawberries, salads, broccoli, and  some other veges. I had sugary ketchup and bbq sauce a few times. So pretty tight, really. And I'm within the normal range, yet towards the high end still. Very interesting, I'm glad I had this done. The fingerprick blood sample seems not so accurate . L ike yesteday when it was 125, I redid it and it was 105.
Next I should do a cholesterol panel!


The normal range (that found in healthy persons) is 4%–5.9%.[2].


People with diabetes mellitus often have higher levels of HbA1c. While diabetic patient treatment goals vary, many include a target range of HbA1c values. A diabetic person with good glucose control has a HbA1c level that is close to or within the reference range. The International Diabetes Federation and American College of Endocrinology recommends HbA1c values below 6.5%, while the range recommended by the American Diabetes Association extends to 7%. A high HbA1c represents poor glucose control. Because of the complications due to poorly controlled diabetes mellitus, many surgeons will not operate on patients with a HbA1c level above 7%.

Interpreting results is somewhat difficult because (1) laboratory results can differ depending on the analytical technique and (2) biological variation between individuals can be up to 1 percentage point (i.e., two individuals with the same average blood sugar can have A1C values that differ by up to 1 percentage point).[3]

The mapping between HbA1c and blood glucose average is shown in the table below.HbA1c (%) Avg. Blood Sugar (mmol/L) Avg. Blood Sugar (mg/dL)
5 4.5 80
6 6.7 120
7 8.3 150
8 10.0 180
9 11.6 210
10 13.3 240
11 15.0 270
12 16.7 300


Lower than expected levels of HbA1c can be seen in people who have an increased red blood cell (RBC) turn-over, such as with G6PD, Sickle-cell disease, or any other condition causing immature red blood cell death. Higher than epected levels can be seen in people with a lower RBC turn-over, such as with Vitamin B12 or folate deficiency.

Day 71 Monday June 18

FOOD:

Breakfast:

Lunch:

Dinner:

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 285
BLOOD SUGAR: 113
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
OK, so I'm off now. I slept from 2AM to 10 AM. Not bad. Woke up and felt pretty awake.

Day 70 Sunday June 17

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and eggs

Lunch:

Dinner:
2 burgers
2 sausage
potato salad
baked beans
cookie cake piece
3 beers
wonder what blood sugar will be tomorrow. Waiting on Hb1Acl test results, or whatever its called.

EXERCISE: none
WEIGHT: 282
BLOOD SUGAR: 125, then 104 after retest (why so high? Orange juice day before?)
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: bbq at friends house. Blood sugar goes up to 113 tomorrow after cheats today. Need to be on guard for this sort of thing. I refuse to make myself feel guilty, but I do want to stick to my regimine.

Day 69 Saturday June 16

FOOD:

Breakfast: bacon and omega3 eggs

Lunch:

Dinner: low carb omlette from diner(saus, bacon, eggs, mushrooms, onions, peppers) with ketchup, and 6 oz orange juice

EXERCISE: Walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 283
BLOOD SUGAR: 89
KETONES: small

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: Hard waking up today. My sleep has been even more out of sorts, coming home, taking a nap, waking at 10 pm, websurfing, sleep for 2 more hours then work. Some mornings, like this morning, when I wake up it's like I'm drunk, and I have a headache, like I was out drinking or something. I've had a few headaches this week. I'm starting to think I get the headaches from carbs somehow (my single track mind, lol!). I can remember years ago when I was taking pills from the doctor to lose weight- he had me avoiding carbs also, and at that time I strongly associated my headaches with a descire to eat some carb type snack. I wonder if it's a carb pang, or something completely different. Just hunger? hmmm..

Day 68 Friday June 15

FOOD:

Breakfast:

Lunch: ghetto fries (fries with cheese, peppers, spices)
2 pcs fried chicken
italian beef and sausage (no bun)

Dinner: no additives roast beef cold cuts
baby swiss cheese
steak

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:

Day 67 Thursday June 14

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and eggs

Lunch: none

Dinner: 1 lb grassfed
low carb ketchup( which has sorbitol. Just started reading about how it's not good for diabetics. damn! Maybe the organic is better, but it has more carbs. Or maybe no condiment at all! Salt, butter?)

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 285
BLOOD SUGAR: 83
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: went home after work and crashed! woke up really late, ate some food, stayed up a few hours and slept again. I've been really busy at work this week.

Day 66, Wednesday June 13

FOOD:

Breakfast:bacon and eggs (omega3 of course)

Lunch: 1 pc fried chicken
small salad
4 oz italian roast beef and giardianera- good!

Dinner: homemade stirfry:
grassfed, broccoli, onion, pepper, a few baby carrots (used 2 T corn starch in recipe)

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 286 (weight seems to have stalled- not concerned)
BLOOD SUGAR: 89
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: Need to exercise more. Need to watch the slips, with breaded fast food, bbq sauce being the two problem areas I can see. When I'm out and hungry, I'd be better off with a salad, and maybe a burger sans bun, to avoid the breading and sauce. I use and like the 1 carb ketchup at home, but the stuff at fast food places is super sugary.

I'm really considering quitting drinking. I don't do it that often, but every week or two I do, and sometimes I do too much, and drive when I shouldn't, or miss a day of work (2 this year) from being hung over. I've been reading about how it affects the brain, esp. the prefrontal cortex, which the area I'm concerned with since it relates to ADD. Also have been avoiding pot, and thinking of making this a standing thing, at least for a few months. I really like that, and I would miss it occasionally. Not sure how bad it is. We all know it's not a killer like alcohol, but with all the reading I've been doing, it seems like the brain is a sensitive thing, and all kinds of activities affect it. I'm at the point where I want to pull out all the stops, and see if I can affect it for the better.

I read stuff recently about insulin blocking dopamine. So being obese and insulin resistant I guess could have mood affects. And exercise, even one session, has a good impact on insulin resistance. And pumps more blood and dopamine into the prefrontal cortex.

Health has been decent. Looking at small things. No colds since I started this regimin, no skin tags or skin infections like I used to have (at one point terrible ones- I think there's a connection to insulin resistance, like the skin tags. Big toes used to be sore, but that's much better, although it did flare up a while ago. Walking and losing weight should help that. Occasional whitehead on nose, but skin decent. Feeling more alert and energetic. Once in a while I'll think of something to do, like a chore, and I'll just do it and it seems easy. Something that I might have put off before. Still a long way from where I want to be, but feeling better. Sleep patters still suck big time. Deficiency in the prefrontal cortex leads to executive dysfunction, which is poor planning and orientation to the present rather than the future. Short term rather than long term. Future blindness. Not finishing tasks, not sticking with a task until completion. I def. have that trait/syndrome!

Feeling a little more sociable, but not much. Missed a ton of opportunites today for instance to chat up cute girls and cool people at work. Living in my own little world still sometimes.

Day 65 Tuesday June 12

FOOD:

Breakfast: bacon and eggs

Lunch: stew/grassfed/onion/peppers/tomatoes

Dinner:
16 chicken nuggets-breaded, bbq sauce (high fructose corn syrup, I'll bet)
burger no bun, 3 onion rings

EXERCISE: walk ~ 1 hour
WEIGHT: 288
BLOOD SUGAR: 83
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
did the HB1AC1 test today for blood sugar. Sent it away- see what results are. It's only $35. I should do one more often- and I should do a cholesterol test also.
Not feeling too bad- make a big mistake at work, which I can fix, but I was really hating myself for not keeping up with things. Walk was nice.

good meta-analysis- Syndrome X best treated by carb reduction

Carbohydrate restriction improves the features of Metabolic Syndrome. Metabolic Syndrome may be defined by the response to carbohydrate restriction

Abstract


Metabolic Syndrome (MetS) represents a constellation of markers that indicates a predisposition to diabetes, cardiovascular disease and other pathologic states. The definition and treatment are a matter of current debate and there is not general agreement on a precise definition or, to some extent, whether the designation provides more information than the individual components. We consider here five indicators that are central to most definitions and we provide evidence from the literature that these are precisely the symptoms that respond to reduction in dietary carbohydrate (CHO). Carbohydrate restriction is one of several strategies for reducing body mass but even in the absence of weight loss or in comparison with low fat alternatives, CHO restriction is effective at ameliorating high fasting glucose and insulin, high plasma triglycerides (TAG), low HDL and high blood pressure. In addition, low fat, high CHO diets have long been known to raise TAG, lower HDL and, in the absence of weight loss, may worsen glycemic control. Thus, whereas there are numerous strategies for weight loss, a patient with high BMI and high TAG is likely to benefit most from a regimen that reduces CHO intake. Reviewing the literature, benefits of CHO restriction are seen in normal or overweight individuals, in normal patients who meet the criteria for MetS or in patients with frank diabetes. Moreover, in low fat studies that ameliorate LDL and total cholesterol, controls may do better on the symptoms of MetS. On this basis, we feel that MetS is a meaningful, useful phenomenon and may, in fact, be operationally defined as the set of markers that responds to CHO restriction. Insofar as this is an accurate characterization it is likely the result of the effect of dietary CHO on insulin metabolism. Glucose is the major insulin secretagogue and insulin resistance has been tied to the hyperinsulinemic state or the effect of such a state on lipid metabolism. The conclusion is probably not surprising but has not been explicitly stated before. The known effects of CHO-induced hypertriglyceridemia, the HDL-lowering effect of low fat, high CHO interventions and the obvious improvement in glucose and insulin from CHO restriction should have made this evident. In addition, recent studies suggest that a subset of MetS, the ratio of TAG/HDL, is a good marker for insulin resistance and risk of CVD, and this indicator is reliably reduced by CHO restriction and exacerbated by high CHO intake. Inability to make this connection in the past has probably been due to the fact that individual responses have been studied in isolation as well as to the emphasis of traditional therapeutic approaches on low fat rather than low CHO.

Day 64, Monday June 11

FOOD:

Breakfast:
mcdonalds- 2 sausage patties and eggs

Lunch:
omega 3 eggs and bacon
coffee
strawberries-3 (been having a bite of strawberries, blueberries, raw broccoli/carrots to dip occasionally over the last 2 weeks or so. Helps my digestion, and I try to keep it to the little munch here and there.

Dinner:
1 lb grassfed ground beef
1 carb ketchup

EXERCISE: none
WEIGHT: 289
BLOOD SUGAR: 80- much lower! due to exercise? despite chinese food sauce previous day. I read some stuff lately that just one exercise session improves insulin resistance.
KETONES: slight

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: Really pissed off at work- I'm being lazy but have a ton of deadlines this week. Realize I forgot to submit some ppwk and this mistake may cost me two thousand fucking dollars. Furious with myself. Starting to read more about relationship between insulin and dopamine. Trying to tie obesity/insulin resistance/metabolic syndrome, with add/executive dysfunction, all of which I seem to have. That's why I make boneheaded mistakes like that one I found about today.

Day 63, Sunday June 10

FOOD:

Breakfast:
omega3 bacon and eggs

Lunch:
2 pork chops/butter

Dinner:
order chinese-beef with broccoli
teriyaki beef

EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 288
BLOOD SUGAR: 118 (again high- stress? breaded chicken? potato salad? diet pop?)
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: Again, despite the grief this week, I've been feeling decent. I've been taking 5-htp and l-dopa, along with L-tyrosine, SamE, vitamin B, magnesium, multivitamin, vitamin C, along with high doses of omega 3 fish oil. A big mood pickup. A little more productive as well I think, but not much. But at least I'm not dragging my heels. I need to get back to walking and weights, and tighten up my diet, and see where that takes me. I want to order more grassfed and game meat off the internet, probably within the next two weeks.

Day 62, Saturday June 9

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and omega3 eggs

Lunch:
fried chicken (breaded)
cole slaw
1/3 cup potato salad

Dinner:
I made a stew out of grassfed beef roast, tomatoes, onions, green peppers. Turned out to be pretty tasty. Guessing it will also raise my blood sugar because of all the veges. I'll see what happens.

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 290
BLOOD SUGAR: 118- why so high? no exercise lately? Stressed about my cat? gyro sauce?
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
I'm putting my cat to sleep today. It was really rough, but I feel a little relieved. He was so sick, and I'm wiped out with crying since Wed when I found out. I read everything I could on FIP, to make sure I knew what I was doing was right, and I took time to say good bye to him, as did his sister. He will be missed.

Day 61, Friday June 8

FOOD:

Breakfast:
2 sausage patties
eggs
from mcdonalds

Lunch:
gyros meat and onion and sauce
dbl burger with bacon and cheese (no bun)
this is alot of food to me- feeling full. Normally thise meal, with the bread, and fries, and a real pop, would not have filled me up. I don't feel hungry these days, or I should say cravings. I don't eat past being full either. I used to fill my stomach to bursting with spaghetti until it hurt, and I still wanted more.

Dinner:
Some more veges, salmon, blueberries

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 288
BLOOD SUGAR: 105
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Sad about cat. Feeling a little more energetic last week or more.

Day 60, Thursday June 7

FOOD:

Breakfast:
omega 3 bacon and eggs (5, and 4)

Lunch:
Meatloaf (has bread- possibly why blood sugar goes up next day)
Salad

Dinner:
smoked salmon
4 pcs fried chicken (breading, oil, another reason for blood sugar rise next day?)
raw veges and dipping sauce (sugar in sauce?)

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 286
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Feel like shit about my sick cat. Other than that feeling better mood wise lately. I've cut out smoking weed, and that might be part of it. Also mega doses of omega 3 every day. Planning to minimize drinking as well. All that stuff affects the neurotransmitters and the reward pathway in the brain, and the frontal lobe, which I'm trying to improve upon. Basically trying to eschew unnatural things, to see what I can do to improve my health and mood.

Day 59, Wednesday June 6

FOOD:

Breakfast:
omega 3 bacon and eggs

Lunch:
ground beef
cheese

Dinner:
2 tacos, meat, lettuce, cheese, hot sauce-discarded wrapping
1 steak burrito meat only-discarded tortilla

EXERCISE: none
WEIGHT: 286
BLOOD SUGAR: 96
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Feel Terrible :(
My cat has FIP. Feline infectious peritonitis (FIP) He has had a fever for at least 10 days now, and has lost a lot of weight. He seems to have some fluid in his lungs. He has no energy, and doesn't play. He doesn't want to be petted or held. He eats and drinks a little. He has been battling constipation as well. He's anemic and his globulin is high. He weighed 2 lbs more than his sister when they were younger, and now we weighs 2 lbs. less than her. I'm putting him to sleep Saturday. He's 14 months old. His sister and I will miss him very much. :(

Day 58, Tuesday June 5

FOOD:

Breakfast:
two sausage patties and egg and coffee from mcdonalds

Lunch:
two pcs chicken
greens

Dinner:
mcdonalds breaded chicken nuggets
diet pop

1 lb ground beef
low carb ketchup

EXERCISE: walk 40 min
WEIGHT:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
My cat is really sick. I guess I was in a decent mood considering. I took him to the vet this evening and he might have a fatal virus thing. Feeling very sad.

Day 57, Monday June 4

FOOD:

Breakfast:

Lunch:
salmon smoked

Dinner:
breaded chicken nuggets

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Hung over from night before- missed work. Stupid. Slept all day. Alcohol is turning out to be a real obstacle. I may need to deep six it. ADHD is basically the alcoholism gene. If I researched it like I research dopamine and diabetes and ADD, I'm sure I'd find it is hurting my efforts to improve my brain and my body. I just say something today about alcohol damaging the executive function of the brain, something that's impaired in people with ADD (planning, future orientation, delayed gratification).

Day 56, Sunday June 3

FOOD:

Breakfast:

Lunch:
tuna
berries

Dinner:
4 pcs popeyes chicken
cole slaw

many beers

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 290
BLOOD SUGAR: 89
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: decent. mad about getting drunk again, but I had a nice day hanging out with a friend. I realized I need to mix business (dopamine) with pleasure (serotonin). Business alone is work for it's own sake- tedious and pointless. Pleasure alone is unrewarding, because you end up sitting on your ass waiting for pleasure to come to you. I need to marry work ethic to the pleasure ethic, and seek my desires, once I figure out what those are. My cat (one of them) is not doing well at all. It really sucks.

Day 55 Saturday June 2

FOOD:

Breakfast:
25 breaded chicken nuggets with bbq sauce

Lunch:
2 sandwiches, WITH BUN, lunch meat
DORITOS
diet pop

9 beers

Dinner:
Salad
5 breaded nuggets

late night- pork chop

EXERCISE: walk 20 minutes
WEIGHT: 287
BLOOD SUGAR: 100
KETONES: trace

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
helping friend out, so his mother in law makes me eat this stuff. it sucks. Surprised I've gone so long without having much social pressure to eat grains/carbs. The last few days have been rife with errors. Small things, but it seems like they start a slide. I've also been out of grassfed for a while, so that has been missing. And I haven't kept up with lifing weights once a week as I had hoped. These dips will come, not a biggie. It seems like the 5-htp and l-dopa seem to be improving my mood.

Day 54, Friday June 1

FOOD:

Breakfast:
steak and egg cheese bagel sans bun from mcdonalds, some onion also

Lunch:
breaded chicken nuggets, coffee, green beans

Dinner:
teriyaki beef
beef with broccoli from chinese food place

later, some summer sausage, a few ounces, and a handful of almonds

EXERCISE: none
WEIGHT: 288
BLOOD SUGAR: 89
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: not bad really. I started taking 5-HTP for serotonin and levodopa (L-dopa) in the morning. See what happens.