Day 145 Friday 8/31/07

FOOD:
1 beer
italian beef no bread
chicken sandwich no bread burger king
triple burger no bread burger king


WEIGHT: 264
CAFFEINE:
SLEEP:
SUN:
EXERCISE:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
FASTING in the AM

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:

Day 75 Friday June 22

FOOD:

Breakfast:
steak and eggs
some hash browns

Lunch:

Dinner:
line caught tuna in olive oil
salad w/ blue cheese dressing
1 cup potato salad

later:
peanuts
carrots
10 beers?

EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 286
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Got a few things done. Feeling decent. Walking sure is a mood booster.

Hung out with friends and then went to some local bars. One guy said to me "you sure look happy" jokingly. I guess I walked in with a pretty serious face. I try to smile more, but Guess when I drink I forget that. You know, I'm tempted to drink not so much because I enjoy it, but as a way to socialize more. When I think about quitting my chief worry is that I'll be even more unsociable. But like last night, I wan't socialable anyway. And when I drink I rely on that rather than trying to improve my social skills. I spend too much money, get hungover, drive when I shouldn't, and behave erraticly. There was a girl last night I should have talked to but didn't. I should quit drinking, and then try to go to all these places again and be more sociable. If you just mind your own business people end up talking to you anyway. At least I'd be something to put myself out there.

Again, weight loss has stalled. I'm not going to beat myself up or get too weight focused. In a way losing it slowly makes it more likely to stick, and I'm in the for the long haul. I do need to look at how my transgressions, like potatoes, sauces, breading and beer have hurt my progress.

Got some more weights from my friend. Still waiting for bench!

Day 70 Sunday June 17

FOOD:

Breakfast:
bacon and eggs

Lunch:

Dinner:
2 burgers
2 sausage
potato salad
baked beans
cookie cake piece
3 beers
wonder what blood sugar will be tomorrow. Waiting on Hb1Acl test results, or whatever its called.

EXERCISE: none
WEIGHT: 282
BLOOD SUGAR: 125, then 104 after retest (why so high? Orange juice day before?)
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: bbq at friends house. Blood sugar goes up to 113 tomorrow after cheats today. Need to be on guard for this sort of thing. I refuse to make myself feel guilty, but I do want to stick to my regimine.

Day 56, Sunday June 3

FOOD:

Breakfast:

Lunch:
tuna
berries

Dinner:
4 pcs popeyes chicken
cole slaw

many beers

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 290
BLOOD SUGAR: 89
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: decent. mad about getting drunk again, but I had a nice day hanging out with a friend. I realized I need to mix business (dopamine) with pleasure (serotonin). Business alone is work for it's own sake- tedious and pointless. Pleasure alone is unrewarding, because you end up sitting on your ass waiting for pleasure to come to you. I need to marry work ethic to the pleasure ethic, and seek my desires, once I figure out what those are. My cat (one of them) is not doing well at all. It really sucks.

Day 55 Saturday June 2

FOOD:

Breakfast:
25 breaded chicken nuggets with bbq sauce

Lunch:
2 sandwiches, WITH BUN, lunch meat
DORITOS
diet pop

9 beers

Dinner:
Salad
5 breaded nuggets

late night- pork chop

EXERCISE: walk 20 minutes
WEIGHT: 287
BLOOD SUGAR: 100
KETONES: trace

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
helping friend out, so his mother in law makes me eat this stuff. it sucks. Surprised I've gone so long without having much social pressure to eat grains/carbs. The last few days have been rife with errors. Small things, but it seems like they start a slide. I've also been out of grassfed for a while, so that has been missing. And I haven't kept up with lifing weights once a week as I had hoped. These dips will come, not a biggie. It seems like the 5-htp and l-dopa seem to be improving my mood.

Day 49, Sunday May 27

FOOD:

Breakfast:
Bacon and eggs, some coffee

Lunch:

Dinner:
2 burgers no bun
3 sausage no bun
some green peppers
potato salad
3 mini cupcakes
baked beans- sweet sauce
14 grapes

6 beers

later that night, hung with other buddy. Drank more beers and stayed up until 6 AM.


EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 289
BLOOD SUGAR: 93
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: Stayed up late last night, but woke up earlier today (cats woke me up and I went back for 45 minutes more, but still around 6 hours of sleep, and I don't feel bad really, fairly alert and well rested.

BBQ at friends house today, but first coffee with this girl I met online. Not super excited, but glad to be getting back into the flow.

So coffee was good. I think she's cool, but not a match. Prob. should email and tell her this.

Went to BBQ, then later met up with other buddy and drank beers and smoked pot until 6 AM. Monday, spent entire day in bed, woke at midnight Tuesday. I'm editing this at 2 AM tuesday.

Day 41, Saturday May 19

Bacon and eggs
beef with broccoli- chinese
egg drop soup
beers- hung over next day

Day 40 Friday May 18

FOOD:

Breakfast: ??

Lunch:??

Early Dinner:
beer

Late Dinner:??

EXERCISE: walk 60 minutes

WEIGHT: 291

BLOOD SUGAR: 101

EVENTS:

MOOD:
feeling in a better mood

SLEEP/ALERTNESS Prior Day:

Day 34 Saturday May 12

FOOD:

Breakfast:
none- slept late

Lunch:
chorizo and eggs

Early Dinner:
pork chops with some bbq sauce
3 beers

Late Dinner:
Popeyes chicken strips, bbq sauce
buffalo nuggets
cole slaw
diet pop

EXERCISE:
none

WEIGHT: 300

BLOOD SUGAR: 104

KETONES:

EVENTS: Hung out with buddies, had a good time. Sorta early night.

SLEEP/ALERTNESS Prior Day: hmmmm.... not sure.

Day 28 Sunday May 6

FOOD:

Breakfast:
chorizo
4 omega3 eggs

Early Dinner:
burger with catsup
2 ribs
9 beers? more? (called in sick next day- hung over and tired)

EXERCISE:
Slow burn (tm) workout at health club
did one set, 10 secs up, 10 secs down, for each body part. Hard! Sore next day!
Will try to do this once a week. Thinking about getting a trainer- there's a place in town for this. For this kind of workout, a trainer would help. Muscles are sore.

WEIGHT: 295

BLOOD SUGAR: 94

KETONES: trace

EVENTS: slept late, taking it easy. Then buddy called and wanted to hang out. Afterwards we went to bar, and I had too many beers. Up too late. Had a good time, after being a hermit all weekend, by why get drunk on sunday night? Dumb. Sometime's I'm my own worst enemy. I guess I felt like I could do whatever I wanted to reward myself for working out. When I hang out with this one friend is when I usually drink. Not to blame him, but I really need to anticipate this and plan better. Plan an escape route!

MOOD: decent. Nice day, enjoyed the workout. Feeling good. Again, feeling more clear headed. Seems like with my procrastination, I still do it, but it's easier for me to determine what's really important. I also don't fret about all the details and ideas that pop in to my head and overwhelm me. I'll try to write it down, or think if it's really important it will come back to me. Want to get more organized using paper than computer. I heard that people with ADD are more visual. I put up more clocks at home, and got this time-timer visual timer. I also bought the invisible clock, and it's a beeper thing that I can set up to vibrate every 10 minutes. It reminds me to look at the time and keep moving- stay on task. It helps. Interesting stuff.

SLEEP/ALERTNESS Prior Day: went to bed earlier, woke up like 10 or something.

Day 21 Sunday April 29

FOOD:

Breakfast: none

Lunch: none

Early Dinner:

Late Dinner:
ribs
2 garlic burgers sans bun
(cookout at buddy's house)
~4 beers?

EXERCISE: none

WEIGHT: 299! Broke the 300 barrier!

BLOOD SUGAR: 80

KETONES: small

EVENTS: BBQ at friends house. Okay time. Stayed up really late when I got home.

MOOD: all right

SLEEP/ALERTNESS Prior Day:
stayed up really late- like 4am. Slept until 2:30 today. Just up late surfing the web

Day 20 Saturday April 28

FOOD:

Breakfast:
4 omega 3 eggs
5 pcs nitrate free bacon
coffee

Lunch:

Early Dinner:

Late Dinner:
6 beers
fish sandwich patty (Breaded) and
3 chicken fingers (Breaded) and tiny bit of Bbq sauce
from mcdonalds

EXERCISE:
none

WEIGHT: 300

BLOOD SUGAR:

EVENTS: Puttered around the house, got a tiny bit done. Visited some friends later in the evening.

MOOD: decent

SLEEP/ALERTNESS Prior Day:

Day 13 Saturday April 21

FOOD:

Breakfast:
4 omega 3 eggs
5 pieces bacon

Lunch:

Early Dinner:

Late Dinner:

EXERCISE:

WEIGHT:
305

BLOOD SUGAR:
109

EVENTS:
Drank a bunch of beers again.

MOOD:
okay. Feeling like I need to take a break from beer. It's not very paleo, and I've been acting the fool when I drink lately.

SLEEP/ALERTNESS Prior Day:

Day 6 April 14 Saturday

FOOD:

Breakfast:
4 omega 3 eggs
5 pieces bacon
black coffee

Dinner:
4 oz. ham
20 blueberries

Late Night:
10 beers
unknown number of Jack and Cokes

EXERCISE: Walk 1 1/2 hours

WEIGHT: 308 down from 309
I have this program on my palm called "eat watch". It's cool, because you enter your weights in there, and it averages them out and does a "moving average". Basically it curves your weight and smoothes out the line. Gives you a better sense of what't going on. It shows a continuous drop because even though the last few days weight have been close, every day at the lower weight shows a real change from a few days ago, since my weight is staying at the new level. I wish I could run two copies of it, or find something similar to run on my desktop to track my blood sugar too.

BLOOD SUGAR: 138 UP from 118 (breading on chicken yesterday?)

EVENTS:
Took it easy most of day. Did some walking. Talked to J. on the phone, and that didn't go so well, but at least I called and didn't procrastinate. Hung out with friends, saw a movie, and then went out drinking. Not very paleo, I know. I was hung over like crazy the next day. I also probably should have eaten more before I went out, but I didn't know there would be so much drinking. I puked late at night. :(

MOOD: Okay I guess.

SLEEP/ALERTNESS Prior Day:
Slept well last night. Feel alert today.

Day 3 April 11 Wednesday

FOOD:
Breakfast
4 omega 3 eggs
5 pieces of bacon
Coffee, black

Lunch
Skipped

Early Dinner:
1 gyro, meat and onions and a little sauce (I've heard lamb is usually grassfed?)
Burger, onion, meat and lettuce only.

Late Dinner:
Some beef roast
2 carrots,
1 beer
3 glasses of wine
1 scoop chocolate ice cream

Late night:
A few pieces of lefover Easter ham ~2 oz

EXERCISE:
None

WEIGHT:
309 down from 315

BLOOD SUGAR:

EVENTS:
Hung out with friends, got phone number from girl I've been interested in for a while. I missed the opportunity before, but was determined to ask this time!

Late to work today. :( Sleep schedule messed up- stayed up to late. Have to watch that.

A little peer pressure (or at least me being two polite, and nervous about asking girl out), led to some alcohol consumption and ice cream. I did avoid the potatoes and didn't overdo it on booze. I don't want to see anything as a "failure" or "mistake", because like anything else it will take time for me to become adjusted to eating differently, and developing strategies for eating the way I want. For example, I still don't have a lunch routine down. Should I bring something from home, or eat out and just eat the meat? I want to avoid trans fats in fast food as much as possible, but it's hard to know what's in anything. The best is just to prepare things on my own, but I need to make sure to plan ahead and have things ready.

MOOD:
Good. Glad I'm pursuing girl "J". She's starting to grow on me. Excited but still mellow, we'll see what happens. Generally in positive mood. Feeling scattered at work, but got some stuff done and had another meeting after work.

SLEEP/ALERTNESS Prior Day:
Alert during evening meeting, feeling a little more energetic lately.