YEAR AGE WEIGHT COMMENTS
1968
1969 1
1970 2
1971 3
1972 4
1973 5 44 lbs height 46"
1974 6
1975 7
1976 8 ate TONS of ding dongs, ho ho's, pop, pasta, carbs as a kid!
1977 9
1978 10 82lbs height 57"
1979 11
1980 12
1981 13 130 height 65" Started high school- getting a little pudgy
1982 14
1983 15
1984 16 163
1985 17 193 started lifting weights- self esteem boost - grad high school
1986 18 drank lots of beer in college. had a few periods where I lifted weights
1987 19
1988 20
1989 21 205?
1990 22 210 became vegetarian-2 years graduated college
1991 23 236 became vegetarian-2 years Cholesterol 160 HDL too low
1992 24 260 I gained 50 pounds going vegetarian!
1993 25 245 exercising more, lost a little, jogged/stairs, cardio
1994 26 270
1995 27 280 july-Cholesterol 198 Triglyceride 150
1996 28 305 Remember thinking "if I ever hit 300 lbs. I'll quit eating!" Didn't do that though!
1997 29 315? Oct 97-pre weight loss doctor test results Cholesterol 171, HDL low 30 Triglyceride 156
saw weight loss doctor- medications, SSRI, low carb, lost weight (20-40 lbs?). Over time, medication less effective, and I dropped off. Should have realized the low carb is what was losing the weight, not the medication!
1998 30
1999 31
2000 32 gaining weight in these years
2001 33
2002 34 My highest weight? Don't know- stopped weighing myself
2003 35 Cholesterol 167, HDL 23 (ratio 7.3- BAD!) Triglycerides 131 (uric acid high, iron is low)
2004 36 360-down to 336 in june/july doing Atkins /lost weight on atkins over a month or two, then met my girlfriend. Went off low carb, gained back weight because new girlfriend talked me out of Atkins!
2005 37 336-360? gained back weight I lost. Don't know my highest weight
2006 38 360?-307 lost on atkins/paleo, estimated. Doctor's visit in spring- test results - blood profile not too bad, but blood sugar 134. Over 126 is indicative of diabetes. Also, blood pressure too high. Kind of blew this off, but started reading more about diabetes, and realized how serious this blood sugar reading was. Bought a meter, and started testing myself, and realized my blood sugar could be WAY higher! Sometimes it was over 200! In October I started back on Atkins and started walking every day. Lost weight and improved blood sugar big time. Went back to doctor 3 months later, and things had improved. I went from 338-307 in 2 months. I then got lazy again until April of 2007. I actually gained back 10 lbs between december 06 and april 07.
2007 39 340-277 lost on atkins/paleo, Period Nov 2006-July 2007.
From April 1-July 8, went from 318-277, doing my most paleo diet yet, and walking.
Weigh less now than I have in 12 years!
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It is believed that the triglycerides/HDL ratio is one of the most potent predictors of heart disease. It is generally considered that if this number is below 2 the person is generally at a low risk of heart disease. So, the lower your triglycerides, or the higher your HDL, the smaller this ratio becomes.
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Some physicians and cholesterol technicians use the ratio of total cholesterol to HDL cholesterol in place of the total blood cholesterol. The ratio is obtained by dividing the HDL cholesterol level into the total cholesterol. For example, if a person has a total cholesterol of 200 mg/dL and an HDL cholesterol level of 50 mg/dL, the ratio would be 4:1. The goal is to keep the ratio below 5:1; the optimum ratio is 3.5:1.
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HDL levels have an inverse relationship with coronary heart disease. The ability of HDL to predict the development of coronary atherosclerosis has been estimated to be four times greater than LDL and eight times greater than TC. Treatment is recommended for those with a HDL level below 40 mg/dL. An HDL of 60 mg/dL is considered protection against heart disease.
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Ratio of total Cholesterol to HDL
Risk Men Women
Very low (1/2 average) <3.4 <3.3
Low risk 4.0 3.8
Average risk 5.0 4.5
Moderate risk (2x average) 9.5 7.0
High risk (3x risk) >23 >11
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The two most important are the HDL/Cholesterol and Triglyceride/HDL ratios. Generally the HDL ratio should be above 25 and preferably in the 30s. If it is in the 40s, that nearly guarantees immunity from heart disease. Whereas if it is below 15, and certainly below 10, a heart attack is inevitable. To calculate the ratio simply divide your TOTAL cholesterol by your HDL and multiply by 100 (move the decimal point over two places to the right). It is just a matter of when, not if, it will happen. The triglyceride ratio should be below 2.0.
I think he means divide HDL by total cholesterol?
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Protective Warning
Total Cholesterol / HDL Less than 4.2 4.3 and higher
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Triglycerides
Less than 150 mg/dL Normal
150 - 199 mg/dL Borderline
200 - 499 mg/Dl High
More than 500 mg/Dl Very high
Monday, July 9, 2007
Day 92 Monday July 9
FOOD:
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch:
grassfed stew
Dinner:
grassfed beef
EXERCISE: walk
WEIGHT: 278
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
stayed up until 1AM, woke at noon. Cat woke me up. Maybe I should record my sleeping hours and try to get a handle on what's going on.
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch:
grassfed stew
Dinner:
grassfed beef
EXERCISE: walk
WEIGHT: 278
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
stayed up until 1AM, woke at noon. Cat woke me up. Maybe I should record my sleeping hours and try to get a handle on what's going on.
12 lies of marijuana
From a Marijuana Anonymous newsletter Jan 2007, written by Jeff.
www.marijuana-anonymous.org
I wrote this one evening after a meeting, based on a revelation that came from something that was shared. It started me thinking about how I’d lived in a world of lies and was never able to access my emotional truth while I was smoking pot. It’s important to note that, while these are called The Twelve Marijuana Lies, pot never lied to me. It’s a plant; it grows in a field or just sits there in a bag on my coffee table. The lies were created by me and my illness. It wasn’t until I’d taken the time to step back and look at my life objectively that I was able to identify the lies for what they are and to make adjustments in a healthier way. So here they are, in no particular order.
1. You can’t get addicted to pot.
Many people feel, and studies have shown, that you cannot become physically addicted to pot as you can with alcohol, heroin, cigarettes, coffee, or chocolate cake. But most people don’t understand the insidious nature of addiction. It will overtake someone who has an addictive personality by going through the path of least resistance.
2. Smoking marijuana will make you more creative.
This is quite possibly the most dangerous of all the lies listed here. People who are creative by nature (though not exclusively them) become drawn to pot because they feel that it allows them to get in touch with their creative side. This may even be true on some occasions, but that’s mere coincidence. Remember that you always were creative, and that you always had creative abilities within you. You can have creative inspiration without having to smoke pot.
3. Smoking marijuana will help lower your inhibitions.
Smoking pot raised my anxiety and inhibitions to new heights, or, rather, new depths. The loss of control just made me anxious, even around my closest friends. Ultimately, I didn’t like to get high and be around people, so I came to believe that people were the problem, not the pot. I took people out of my life and kept smoking pot, always by myself and in a way that made me more and more isolated from others. My inhibitions could not have been higher.
4. You’ll make friends and meet cool people when you’ve got pot.
You will meet other potheads, thieves, con artists, dope dealers, insufferable flakes, and a lot of other types of people you’d never associate with otherwise, just because they smoke pot. You’ll wait for hours in unsavory places waiting to score. You’ll talk and laugh about things that are neither interesting nor funny. You’ll sacrifice your integrity just to be in with these people and to support your addiction.
5. Smoking pot will help you “see God.”
Yeah, whatever that means. Pot will actually help drive a wedge between you and your spiritual self. You will think that the effects of marijuana are some form of spiritual awakening, but it’s just the pot. Ending your dependency on pot will allow you to open yourself to the possibility that there is someone or something that is greater than you, and that only that Higher Power can help take away your need for pot and restore your life to sanity.
6. Smoking pot makes you feel good.
I admit, I felt real good knowing I was home and I could shut the door, load up the bong, and go into my own world. I felt good touching it, smelling it, preparing it. But once I was stoned, I felt regret over what I’d done. I wished I hadn’t gotten high because I knew I was just going back into old behavior again.
7. Pot is a great thing to bring to a party.
Pot is a terrible thing to bring to a party. Once everyone’s stoned they tend to just sit there and go into their own minds, without saying much or interacting with each other because they’re too wasted. There’s no interaction, no meaningful dialog, just people sitting around being stoned.
8. Getting high helps you appreciate music, art, sex, etc. more.
You name it, pot can enhance it. That’s what I always heard. As it turns out, I’ve been able to enjoy all of those things just as much without pot as with. So if taking away the pot doesn’t change your ability to enjoy things, you never needed it in the first place.
9. The local cops won’t bust you if you just have a little pot on you.
This may be true in some locales, but why chance it? The police can decide to let you go, or they can turn your life upside down for simple possession. Do you want to have to explain that to friends, family, future employers, and college admissions?
10. Everyone’s doing it.
No, not everyone. Just the stoners like me, who were the only people I chose to hang around with. I’d turned my back on people who’ve tried to help me or reach out to me, all because they didn’t share my craving for marijuana. It’s a shame, because they were nice people who really cared about me, but I cared more about the pot.
11. It won’t give you lung cancer like cigarettes will.
OK, I’m no doctor, but burning leaves that you inhale into your lungs and hold for as long as you can isn’t good for your health. I guess that there haven’t been enough studies done on this, so the jury is still out. In the meantime, why engage in risky behavior?
12. I’ve always been a pot smoker; it’s a part of who I am.
No, it isn’t. One day I made a conscious choice to change who I really was and become a stoner. I thought being a “head” appealed to me, that the world of erudite free-thinking pot smokers was the life for me. Once I learned that I had actually made a lifestyle choice around pot, it became easier to make another lifestyle choice to be clean and sober.
www.marijuana-anonymous.org
I wrote this one evening after a meeting, based on a revelation that came from something that was shared. It started me thinking about how I’d lived in a world of lies and was never able to access my emotional truth while I was smoking pot. It’s important to note that, while these are called The Twelve Marijuana Lies, pot never lied to me. It’s a plant; it grows in a field or just sits there in a bag on my coffee table. The lies were created by me and my illness. It wasn’t until I’d taken the time to step back and look at my life objectively that I was able to identify the lies for what they are and to make adjustments in a healthier way. So here they are, in no particular order.
1. You can’t get addicted to pot.
Many people feel, and studies have shown, that you cannot become physically addicted to pot as you can with alcohol, heroin, cigarettes, coffee, or chocolate cake. But most people don’t understand the insidious nature of addiction. It will overtake someone who has an addictive personality by going through the path of least resistance.
2. Smoking marijuana will make you more creative.
This is quite possibly the most dangerous of all the lies listed here. People who are creative by nature (though not exclusively them) become drawn to pot because they feel that it allows them to get in touch with their creative side. This may even be true on some occasions, but that’s mere coincidence. Remember that you always were creative, and that you always had creative abilities within you. You can have creative inspiration without having to smoke pot.
3. Smoking marijuana will help lower your inhibitions.
Smoking pot raised my anxiety and inhibitions to new heights, or, rather, new depths. The loss of control just made me anxious, even around my closest friends. Ultimately, I didn’t like to get high and be around people, so I came to believe that people were the problem, not the pot. I took people out of my life and kept smoking pot, always by myself and in a way that made me more and more isolated from others. My inhibitions could not have been higher.
4. You’ll make friends and meet cool people when you’ve got pot.
You will meet other potheads, thieves, con artists, dope dealers, insufferable flakes, and a lot of other types of people you’d never associate with otherwise, just because they smoke pot. You’ll wait for hours in unsavory places waiting to score. You’ll talk and laugh about things that are neither interesting nor funny. You’ll sacrifice your integrity just to be in with these people and to support your addiction.
5. Smoking pot will help you “see God.”
Yeah, whatever that means. Pot will actually help drive a wedge between you and your spiritual self. You will think that the effects of marijuana are some form of spiritual awakening, but it’s just the pot. Ending your dependency on pot will allow you to open yourself to the possibility that there is someone or something that is greater than you, and that only that Higher Power can help take away your need for pot and restore your life to sanity.
6. Smoking pot makes you feel good.
I admit, I felt real good knowing I was home and I could shut the door, load up the bong, and go into my own world. I felt good touching it, smelling it, preparing it. But once I was stoned, I felt regret over what I’d done. I wished I hadn’t gotten high because I knew I was just going back into old behavior again.
7. Pot is a great thing to bring to a party.
Pot is a terrible thing to bring to a party. Once everyone’s stoned they tend to just sit there and go into their own minds, without saying much or interacting with each other because they’re too wasted. There’s no interaction, no meaningful dialog, just people sitting around being stoned.
8. Getting high helps you appreciate music, art, sex, etc. more.
You name it, pot can enhance it. That’s what I always heard. As it turns out, I’ve been able to enjoy all of those things just as much without pot as with. So if taking away the pot doesn’t change your ability to enjoy things, you never needed it in the first place.
9. The local cops won’t bust you if you just have a little pot on you.
This may be true in some locales, but why chance it? The police can decide to let you go, or they can turn your life upside down for simple possession. Do you want to have to explain that to friends, family, future employers, and college admissions?
10. Everyone’s doing it.
No, not everyone. Just the stoners like me, who were the only people I chose to hang around with. I’d turned my back on people who’ve tried to help me or reach out to me, all because they didn’t share my craving for marijuana. It’s a shame, because they were nice people who really cared about me, but I cared more about the pot.
11. It won’t give you lung cancer like cigarettes will.
OK, I’m no doctor, but burning leaves that you inhale into your lungs and hold for as long as you can isn’t good for your health. I guess that there haven’t been enough studies done on this, so the jury is still out. In the meantime, why engage in risky behavior?
12. I’ve always been a pot smoker; it’s a part of who I am.
No, it isn’t. One day I made a conscious choice to change who I really was and become a stoner. I thought being a “head” appealed to me, that the world of erudite free-thinking pot smokers was the life for me. Once I learned that I had actually made a lifestyle choice around pot, it became easier to make another lifestyle choice to be clean and sober.
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Day 91 Sunday July 8
FOOD:
Breakfast:
mcdonalds breaded chicken tenders, with bbq sauce
Didn't have bacon at home- nothing to eat and I was in a hurry to meet a friend. Need to stay prepared, because the fast food options are all pretty bad. Or have a salad and a burger patty, instead of breaded stuff with a sweet sauce.
Dinner:
burrito and taco- no tortillas. I find it fascinating how eating this meal makes me feel full, but in the old days when I ate carbs it wouldn't have, even with rice and beans.
EXERCISE: none- stayed out of sun a little bit too, feeling warmth in my skin- don't want to burn.
WEIGHT: 278
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Speaking of rice and beans, when I was in my early 20's I went vegetarian for two years. My grandmother died of diabetes, and I decided that the way to prevent myself from getting diabetes was to give up meat. I ate huge plates of rice and beans, and was always hungry for more. I dug out some old weight data, and pieced it together, and realized that going vegetarian really kicked off my weight gain. I think I gained 40 pounds over those two years. I'll put this old data in a post, it's very interesting.
In an okay mood. Think my mood overall has improved since I started doing this. No improvement with the sleep cycles though.
Breakfast:
mcdonalds breaded chicken tenders, with bbq sauce
Didn't have bacon at home- nothing to eat and I was in a hurry to meet a friend. Need to stay prepared, because the fast food options are all pretty bad. Or have a salad and a burger patty, instead of breaded stuff with a sweet sauce.
Dinner:
burrito and taco- no tortillas. I find it fascinating how eating this meal makes me feel full, but in the old days when I ate carbs it wouldn't have, even with rice and beans.
EXERCISE: none- stayed out of sun a little bit too, feeling warmth in my skin- don't want to burn.
WEIGHT: 278
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Speaking of rice and beans, when I was in my early 20's I went vegetarian for two years. My grandmother died of diabetes, and I decided that the way to prevent myself from getting diabetes was to give up meat. I ate huge plates of rice and beans, and was always hungry for more. I dug out some old weight data, and pieced it together, and realized that going vegetarian really kicked off my weight gain. I think I gained 40 pounds over those two years. I'll put this old data in a post, it's very interesting.
In an okay mood. Think my mood overall has improved since I started doing this. No improvement with the sleep cycles though.
Saturday, July 7, 2007
Day 90 Saturday July 7
FOOD:
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch:
Dinner:
3 burger patties, ribs with bbq sauce
EXERCISE: not sure if I walked
WEIGHT:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
set up lamp to go off in morning and wake me up. Still having trouble getting to sleep on time. Sleep deprived. Took a big nap yesterday evening, and then stayed up til 7am today, and then slept til noon. And I walk out in the sun every morning to try to set my circadian rhythym. Tough.
visited friends, had a good time. Mood starting to lift after being pretty down about money problems lately. Lack of money is holding me back a bit from getting things done right now, and doing fun stuff. But this is a big challenge for me, managing money, and hopefully I'm taking steps in the right direction right now.
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch:
Dinner:
3 burger patties, ribs with bbq sauce
EXERCISE: not sure if I walked
WEIGHT:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
set up lamp to go off in morning and wake me up. Still having trouble getting to sleep on time. Sleep deprived. Took a big nap yesterday evening, and then stayed up til 7am today, and then slept til noon. And I walk out in the sun every morning to try to set my circadian rhythym. Tough.
visited friends, had a good time. Mood starting to lift after being pretty down about money problems lately. Lack of money is holding me back a bit from getting things done right now, and doing fun stuff. But this is a big challenge for me, managing money, and hopefully I'm taking steps in the right direction right now.
Friday, July 6, 2007
Day 89 Friday July 6
FOOD:
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch: made stew from grassfed beef, green pepper, onion, garlic, 2 cans v-8, and some butter, in the crockpot. Divided 3 lbs beef into stew- make 4 portions.
Dinner: More stew
Later, met friends at bar, at some bbq chicken wings, and fried chicken. Diet pop- I quit drinking. Read today that it's bad for triglycerides. I had heard that before, but nice to hear it again.
EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 276
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Starting to feel better about money situation. I'm selling stuff on ebay. I have a budget and a plan and systems in place.
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch: made stew from grassfed beef, green pepper, onion, garlic, 2 cans v-8, and some butter, in the crockpot. Divided 3 lbs beef into stew- make 4 portions.
Dinner: More stew
Later, met friends at bar, at some bbq chicken wings, and fried chicken. Diet pop- I quit drinking. Read today that it's bad for triglycerides. I had heard that before, but nice to hear it again.
EXERCISE: walk 1 hour
WEIGHT: 276
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Starting to feel better about money situation. I'm selling stuff on ebay. I have a budget and a plan and systems in place.
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Day 88 Thursday July 5
FOOD:
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch: chicken breast skinless
Dinner:
grassfed steak
some brat
blue and strawberries
EXERCISE: walk
WEIGHT: ??
BLOOD SUGAR: still no test strips- been broke lately
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
money problems, but feeling okay. If walking is a mood booster, so is the sun! I've been trying to get 13 minutes each side around noon on sunny days. Not much color yet really, but love the feeling of being in the sun. I also notice, that before i hated the sun, and ALWAYS wore sunglasses, whereas now I rarely do. I can remember back to being a kid and hating the sun and heat.
Still problems getting to sleep on time. I can't make a dent in that one!
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch: chicken breast skinless
Dinner:
grassfed steak
some brat
blue and strawberries
EXERCISE: walk
WEIGHT: ??
BLOOD SUGAR: still no test strips- been broke lately
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
money problems, but feeling okay. If walking is a mood booster, so is the sun! I've been trying to get 13 minutes each side around noon on sunny days. Not much color yet really, but love the feeling of being in the sun. I also notice, that before i hated the sun, and ALWAYS wore sunglasses, whereas now I rarely do. I can remember back to being a kid and hating the sun and heat.
Still problems getting to sleep on time. I can't make a dent in that one!
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
Day 86 Wednesday July 4
FOOD:
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch:
raw veges and dip - broccoli, carrots
2 burgers
2 brats
1 dog (no buns on any )
1 slice of cake
Dinner:
1 brat
EXERCISE: walk 1 1/2 hours at night
WEIGHT: 277
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Met girl yesterday, had a nice time actually.
Reading more about sleep, dopamine, insulin resistance. Don't have the book, but reading about "Lights out", which describes a connection between sleeping, light, carbohydrates and insulin production. Read about that company using bromocriptin, or whatever it's called, to treat insulin resistance. They talked about seasonal hormonal changes as well.
Stayed up super late again. I want to revisit this problem again. I was thinking of having lights on timers to wake me up, and tell me to go to sleep, with red lights instead of full spectrum. Also, having lights on in the house during the day as a wakefulness reminder. Setting the light cues to the actual rising and setting of the sun. Sleeping more total hours.
Need to order more grassfed. Need to start lifting weights again.
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch:
raw veges and dip - broccoli, carrots
2 burgers
2 brats
1 dog (no buns on any )
1 slice of cake
Dinner:
1 brat
EXERCISE: walk 1 1/2 hours at night
WEIGHT: 277
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Met girl yesterday, had a nice time actually.
Reading more about sleep, dopamine, insulin resistance. Don't have the book, but reading about "Lights out", which describes a connection between sleeping, light, carbohydrates and insulin production. Read about that company using bromocriptin, or whatever it's called, to treat insulin resistance. They talked about seasonal hormonal changes as well.
Stayed up super late again. I want to revisit this problem again. I was thinking of having lights on timers to wake me up, and tell me to go to sleep, with red lights instead of full spectrum. Also, having lights on in the house during the day as a wakefulness reminder. Setting the light cues to the actual rising and setting of the sun. Sleeping more total hours.
Need to order more grassfed. Need to start lifting weights again.
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Day 85 Tuesday July 3
FOOD:
Breakfast:
steak and omega 3 eggs
Lunch:
Salmon- not farm raised
Dinner:
sm. steak
EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 282
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Back to staying up late and sleeping late. Didn't walk yesterday and actually feel good today- like maybe I needed a rest from it. I am starting to think, especially as I get older, that the resting and recovery is the most productive part of exercise. And I'm not really up to anything grindingly difficult anyway. Reading stuff lately on how killer cardio isn't all that great for you. The better solution is light cardio (walk), moderate weight training, and perhaps occasional hard aerobics like sprinting, if you're in shape for that. I'm down with that. I do want to start lifting, but I've had problems doing that. It's dumb- I'm so disorganized. I bought a bench and rack, but now I need a new barbell. And I'm paranoid about dropping a weight on my cat. So now I'm thinking about bringing my weight stuff to the woods or something and lifting there. It's only once a week, right? But it's a lot to truck out there, and won't work so well once I'm back at work, and it would be nice to play the radio perhaps.
On another note, I'm worse than broke right now. A few unexpected expenses, combined with my ADDish lack of financial discipline and paperwork control, mean that I'm officially fucked. I'm scrambling to get some money now. This sucks. One thing after another.
Reading interesting stuff about the relationship between dopamine and insulin resistance.
Going through old posts today. Recognizing that I had a few tough spots with my exgirlfriend leaving and my cat dying. Also a few financial emergencies that really sunk me. But overall my mood has been improved. Still no progress with women or sleeping, but my ability to do chores is way improved. Getting money stuff under control, clearing out inbox backlogs, filing, getting organized, cleaned out the storeroom, cleaned out junk from the van, creating new routines to stay organized. Planning little outings to festivals and stuff. If I had more money I'd be doing pretty well right now. But I don't, so now I'm dead in the water for months. Again, hoping something will rescue me, but I don't see what. I'm trying to sell stuff online to get money now. Wish me luck!
Oh, meeting girl for coffee at 3pm today. Not excited. God, I don't know why I'm so glum about this kind of stuff. It's like a dentist appointment to me. She seems okay, kinda quirky and cool. I wonder if she smokes pot though, and if that will interfere with what I'm trying to do. Don't really enjoy this sort of thing. Guess that's why I'm not good at it.
Breakfast:
steak and omega 3 eggs
Lunch:
Salmon- not farm raised
Dinner:
sm. steak
EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 282
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Back to staying up late and sleeping late. Didn't walk yesterday and actually feel good today- like maybe I needed a rest from it. I am starting to think, especially as I get older, that the resting and recovery is the most productive part of exercise. And I'm not really up to anything grindingly difficult anyway. Reading stuff lately on how killer cardio isn't all that great for you. The better solution is light cardio (walk), moderate weight training, and perhaps occasional hard aerobics like sprinting, if you're in shape for that. I'm down with that. I do want to start lifting, but I've had problems doing that. It's dumb- I'm so disorganized. I bought a bench and rack, but now I need a new barbell. And I'm paranoid about dropping a weight on my cat. So now I'm thinking about bringing my weight stuff to the woods or something and lifting there. It's only once a week, right? But it's a lot to truck out there, and won't work so well once I'm back at work, and it would be nice to play the radio perhaps.
On another note, I'm worse than broke right now. A few unexpected expenses, combined with my ADDish lack of financial discipline and paperwork control, mean that I'm officially fucked. I'm scrambling to get some money now. This sucks. One thing after another.
Reading interesting stuff about the relationship between dopamine and insulin resistance.
Going through old posts today. Recognizing that I had a few tough spots with my exgirlfriend leaving and my cat dying. Also a few financial emergencies that really sunk me. But overall my mood has been improved. Still no progress with women or sleeping, but my ability to do chores is way improved. Getting money stuff under control, clearing out inbox backlogs, filing, getting organized, cleaned out the storeroom, cleaned out junk from the van, creating new routines to stay organized. Planning little outings to festivals and stuff. If I had more money I'd be doing pretty well right now. But I don't, so now I'm dead in the water for months. Again, hoping something will rescue me, but I don't see what. I'm trying to sell stuff online to get money now. Wish me luck!
Oh, meeting girl for coffee at 3pm today. Not excited. God, I don't know why I'm so glum about this kind of stuff. It's like a dentist appointment to me. She seems okay, kinda quirky and cool. I wonder if she smokes pot though, and if that will interfere with what I'm trying to do. Don't really enjoy this sort of thing. Guess that's why I'm not good at it.
Monday, July 2, 2007
Day 84 Monday July 2
FOOD:
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch:
Dinner:
one roll
potatoes
corned beef
cabbage
carrots
EXERCISE: none
WEIGHT:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: Visited relatives. Ate grain and potato with dinner. Relative commented favorably on how "lean" the corned beef was! "No fat at all on it! That's great"! LOL! If she had any idea how much meat and fat and eggs and bacon I've been eating- and losing weight! And here I'm feeling bad about eating a roll and some potatoes- ha ha! You know, I've made peace with the fact that around relatives, of which I have few, I may not go totally paleo. The rest of the time, which is 99%, it totally up to me what I want to eat or put in my body, and what I want is paleo!
Breakfast:
bacon and eggs
Lunch:
Dinner:
one roll
potatoes
corned beef
cabbage
carrots
EXERCISE: none
WEIGHT:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: Visited relatives. Ate grain and potato with dinner. Relative commented favorably on how "lean" the corned beef was! "No fat at all on it! That's great"! LOL! If she had any idea how much meat and fat and eggs and bacon I've been eating- and losing weight! And here I'm feeling bad about eating a roll and some potatoes- ha ha! You know, I've made peace with the fact that around relatives, of which I have few, I may not go totally paleo. The rest of the time, which is 99%, it totally up to me what I want to eat or put in my body, and what I want is paleo!
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Day 84 Sunday July 1
FOOD:
Breakfast:
sesame chicken- lots of sweet sauce- no rice
teriyaki beef- lots of food
Lunch:
Dinner:
steak and eggs
EXERCISE: WALK/SUN
WEIGHT: 279
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: okay, not great. Some days I take my supplements and somedays I forget. I don't really record that. Also don't record days I get out in the sun. I may start doing that.
Breakfast:
sesame chicken- lots of sweet sauce- no rice
teriyaki beef- lots of food
Lunch:
Dinner:
steak and eggs
EXERCISE: WALK/SUN
WEIGHT: 279
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:
EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: okay, not great. Some days I take my supplements and somedays I forget. I don't really record that. Also don't record days I get out in the sun. I may start doing that.
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