Day 60, Thursday June 7

FOOD:

Breakfast:
omega 3 bacon and eggs (5, and 4)

Lunch:
Meatloaf (has bread- possibly why blood sugar goes up next day)
Salad

Dinner:
smoked salmon
4 pcs fried chicken (breading, oil, another reason for blood sugar rise next day?)
raw veges and dipping sauce (sugar in sauce?)

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 286
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Feel like shit about my sick cat. Other than that feeling better mood wise lately. I've cut out smoking weed, and that might be part of it. Also mega doses of omega 3 every day. Planning to minimize drinking as well. All that stuff affects the neurotransmitters and the reward pathway in the brain, and the frontal lobe, which I'm trying to improve upon. Basically trying to eschew unnatural things, to see what I can do to improve my health and mood.

Day 59, Wednesday June 6

FOOD:

Breakfast:
omega 3 bacon and eggs

Lunch:
ground beef
cheese

Dinner:
2 tacos, meat, lettuce, cheese, hot sauce-discarded wrapping
1 steak burrito meat only-discarded tortilla

EXERCISE: none
WEIGHT: 286
BLOOD SUGAR: 96
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Feel Terrible :(
My cat has FIP. Feline infectious peritonitis (FIP) He has had a fever for at least 10 days now, and has lost a lot of weight. He seems to have some fluid in his lungs. He has no energy, and doesn't play. He doesn't want to be petted or held. He eats and drinks a little. He has been battling constipation as well. He's anemic and his globulin is high. He weighed 2 lbs more than his sister when they were younger, and now we weighs 2 lbs. less than her. I'm putting him to sleep Saturday. He's 14 months old. His sister and I will miss him very much. :(

Day 58, Tuesday June 5

FOOD:

Breakfast:
two sausage patties and egg and coffee from mcdonalds

Lunch:
two pcs chicken
greens

Dinner:
mcdonalds breaded chicken nuggets
diet pop

1 lb ground beef
low carb ketchup

EXERCISE: walk 40 min
WEIGHT:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
My cat is really sick. I guess I was in a decent mood considering. I took him to the vet this evening and he might have a fatal virus thing. Feeling very sad.

Day 57, Monday June 4

FOOD:

Breakfast:

Lunch:
salmon smoked

Dinner:
breaded chicken nuggets

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT:
BLOOD SUGAR:
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
Hung over from night before- missed work. Stupid. Slept all day. Alcohol is turning out to be a real obstacle. I may need to deep six it. ADHD is basically the alcoholism gene. If I researched it like I research dopamine and diabetes and ADD, I'm sure I'd find it is hurting my efforts to improve my brain and my body. I just say something today about alcohol damaging the executive function of the brain, something that's impaired in people with ADD (planning, future orientation, delayed gratification).

Day 56, Sunday June 3

FOOD:

Breakfast:

Lunch:
tuna
berries

Dinner:
4 pcs popeyes chicken
cole slaw

many beers

EXERCISE:
WEIGHT: 290
BLOOD SUGAR: 89
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: decent. mad about getting drunk again, but I had a nice day hanging out with a friend. I realized I need to mix business (dopamine) with pleasure (serotonin). Business alone is work for it's own sake- tedious and pointless. Pleasure alone is unrewarding, because you end up sitting on your ass waiting for pleasure to come to you. I need to marry work ethic to the pleasure ethic, and seek my desires, once I figure out what those are. My cat (one of them) is not doing well at all. It really sucks.

Day 55 Saturday June 2

FOOD:

Breakfast:
25 breaded chicken nuggets with bbq sauce

Lunch:
2 sandwiches, WITH BUN, lunch meat
DORITOS
diet pop

9 beers

Dinner:
Salad
5 breaded nuggets

late night- pork chop

EXERCISE: walk 20 minutes
WEIGHT: 287
BLOOD SUGAR: 100
KETONES: trace

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS:
helping friend out, so his mother in law makes me eat this stuff. it sucks. Surprised I've gone so long without having much social pressure to eat grains/carbs. The last few days have been rife with errors. Small things, but it seems like they start a slide. I've also been out of grassfed for a while, so that has been missing. And I haven't kept up with lifing weights once a week as I had hoped. These dips will come, not a biggie. It seems like the 5-htp and l-dopa seem to be improving my mood.

Day 54, Friday June 1

FOOD:

Breakfast:
steak and egg cheese bagel sans bun from mcdonalds, some onion also

Lunch:
breaded chicken nuggets, coffee, green beans

Dinner:
teriyaki beef
beef with broccoli from chinese food place

later, some summer sausage, a few ounces, and a handful of almonds

EXERCISE: none
WEIGHT: 288
BLOOD SUGAR: 89
KETONES:

EVENTS/MOOD/ALERTNESS: not bad really. I started taking 5-HTP for serotonin and levodopa (L-dopa) in the morning. See what happens.