update

Well hey there!

I noticed I was falling behind with keeping this thing updated. I would get behind a few days, and then feel bad that like typical ADD stuff, here was another chore I was behind in. It gets frustrating. So I decided to keep a record on a paper planner instead. That's okay, but I don't write as many personal comments as I do here, since I hate handwriting- its so slow. Typing is much better. Should get voice recognition- since that would be the fastest by far.

Well, I'm at 263 right now. Been struggling with carbs. Candy at work, sesame chicken, a cookie here and there- and then holidays now.

Made an appointment to see a doc about ADD- might get a diagnosis and meds. I've been trying to figure out everything on my own- and tying it down to sleep/light and diet. It's hard to recreate a paleo diet and sleep routine- esp with work, food temptations, and peer pressure.

Reading more stuff than ever, and still confused. Reading more about narcolepsy today. Orexin involved with hunger, sleep, alertness. Sounds like ADD and diabetes rolled into one. I know the whole syndrome is related- all these things. Red light goggles help ADD. Obese/diabetics have depression, ADD causes/caused by sleep problems, etc etc. But I need to find the end of the thread and start pulling if I want to unwind this thing. I guess that would have to be the twin devils of sleep and carbs. Maybe I need to focus on just doing the right thing instead of figuring out HOW it works. I would like to take a few months to really experiment with a leakproof diet and sleep regimine, and blog the results. Now I'm on a routine where I generally try to sleep more, and eat less carbs- and it does help. But my motivation flags so often. What cinced the deal? This guy in this ADD group told me the medicine wears off after a while, but that for three years on meds he was all there- and got his masters degree easily. Man, I could sure use three good years! So Jan 3, we'll see what the crazy doc says.

Meanwhile, I lay plans for the uber-diet...
grassfed twice a day?
sleep 12 hours?
walk outside 3 times a week?
weights once a week?